lørdag den 25. december 2010

It's hard to be a nisse pige xD

O hai! This is so embarrassing :o Been waaay too long since I last blogged, and I've been wanting to, but haven't gotten anything slightly interesting to say... xD So here is the inevitable christmas blog from me as well! :D :D :D

Since I'm still trying to make my life one big masquerade, I just had to put together a cute Christmas outfit as well x3
Bonus info: The white gloves are vintage. They belonged to my grandma many years ago :3

I was quite satisfied with the whole evening. I spend it with so many nice people, and we ate SUPER DELICIOUS food and I got most of the things from my wishlist.
Not that I wished for anything special really.

I got a new cell-phone and a ton of DVDs just to mention some of it ^w^



My mood has really been going up and down lately. I really hope that the worst of it is caused by the depressing cold and darkness outside Dx


I sat down the other day and started to draw the feeling inside me from that evening, but the result came out more figuretively than literally I would say xD :p


I guess what I'm trying to say is, that everything is just so confusing and tough and random, but I still must strive for a better future, and see the gold in what I've got :3
(Or something like that xD)

Going to spend most of these last 2010-days with the boyfriend, and at New years eve, I will be hosting a small private party for a couple of the closest friends (and the boyfriend as well of course xD)
It's gon' be awsum'!

I'll probably blog later this next week about my year and such x3

There is white-øl in the tønd'. Then the fest will soon begynd!


I love The Julekalender! It is simply fantastisk! xD

tirsdag den 30. november 2010

Some serious stuff in danish

I really have something quite important on my mind, so I'm gonna write it in danish to be sure to express myself clearly.

Det var egentlig aldrig min mening at min blog skulle indeholde indlæg som dette der kommer nu, men jeg føler bare der er et par ting jeg bare må forklare og få ud. Mange ting er sket ret hurtigt de sidste to måneder.
Jeg håber så mange som muligt jeg kender personligt, læser dette og forstår.

Jeg vil starte med at sige at jeg elsker Jesper. Jeg elsker ham højere end nogen anden, bortset fra lige min familie måske. Han var min kæreste i lige godt 2 år og 4 måneder, og det har været nok tæt på den bedste tid i mit liv (indtil videre). Han lærte mig at være glad for livet og for mig selv. For at være positiv og for at være mere åben (ironisk nok).
Jeg havde virkelig troet, at han og jeg skulle være sammen for evigt. Eller jeg havde håbet.
Jeg kunne ikke forestille mig det på nogen anden måde, og derfor var det også en af de sværeste valg jeg har taget i mit liv, at slå op med ham. Jeg græd hver dag den første uges tid og kom med undskyldninger om hvorfor jeg skulle tage ham tilbage, men han cuttede kontakten, så jeg kunne ikke engang forsøge. Og nu her snart 2 måneder efter har jeg stadig ikke haft kontakt med ham, udover de 3 ords sms'er han sendte som svar til mig i starten. Nu svarer han slet ikke.
Det gør enormt mega hamrende pisse ondt ikke engang at kunne snakke med ham. Jeg er på randen til tårer lige netop nu, og jeg ønsker af hele mit hjerte at jeg en dag kan genoptage kontaken med ham. Han ER STADIG min bedste ven!
Men jeg er også nødt til at minde mig selv om, at jeg slog op med ham, for at vi begge kunne være fri for hinandens pres. Mit pres om at han skulle se mig, høre mig, bekræfte mig og være glad på mine vejne, og glad for sig selv og sit liv. Og hans pres om at jeg på en eller anden måde skulle redde ham ud af alle hans problemer og nedture.
Det blev bare for meget, og når han først begyndte på sit "du fortjener bedre end mig" begyndte jeg at tænke: "Ja måske gør jeg." Så til sidst fik jeg også bare følelsen af at han simpelthen ikke orkede mere.

Nu her i dag, føles det som var det længere tid siden end det egentlig var, og jeg er også kommet videre. Jeg har fundet ny kærlighed i mit liv, og ønsker bare at være lykkelig. Men det er bare som om jeg ikke hundrede procent kan give mig hen. Hvilket ikke er fair, for han fortjener min fulde kærlighed, men det er som om jeg ikke kan give slip på Jesper. Det er som om han stadig hjemsøger mig og som om jeg er bange for at være nogen andens.
Hvis jeg bare kunne snakke med Jesper og forklare ham og høre med ham at han var okay med at jeg lever mit liv videre, ville det måske give mening. Men jeg ved jo heller ikke hvordan han har det.
Hvis jeg en dag får kontakten med ham igen, vil det måske knuse ham at vide at jeg allerede er "moved on".

Jeg har haft utallige drømme om Jesper, og hver eneste har været vidt forskellig fra de andre, men de har alle haft samme scenarie. At jeg snakker med ham, og vi bliver gode venner igen. At vi bekræfter det vi havde, men accepterer at tingene er gået videre.
Fuck... Hvis det dog bare var sådan...

Og jeg ER måske også kommet videre ret så hurtigt, men sådan går det når man finder en man kan så godt sammen med. En man deler så mange interesser og holdninger med, og som kan få en til at le. En med et positivt sind. En jeg bare har haft brug for.



Jeg ville for helvede bare ønske jeg kunne give slip og give mig 100% videre. Jeg har været så glad på det seneste, men kan ikke benægte den skide barriere der hele tiden er dukket op.
Tvivlen og usikkerheden.

Så undskyld Ole jeg arbejder på at blive din og undskyld Jesper, kan vi være venner igen? ;___;



(Denne sang beskriver meget godt hvordan jeg havde det dagen efter vores breakup...)

søndag den 14. november 2010

J-pop con & love :3

Is so damn happy inside, that I will start this blog right now!
I don't really have all that many J-pop con pictures yet, but I might as well get it over with xD

Friday was Fullmetal Alchemist day. My Winry cosplay turned out allright, despite the fact that my head looked gigantic under my hair in the wig, and the bandana xD And my eyebrows made me look a little too badass'ish for Winry xD (Badass'ish = Nadia makes up new words xD)


Got a bunch of Edward punches in, with that wrench, lol xD

Saturday was Thriller Bark time! Our group turned out quite cool xD

Picture credit: Kenn Bo Stahnke (stole most of the pictures from FB)
Maja as Tony Tony Chopper, My sis Rosa as Perona, Zozo as Ryuuma, and me as Victoria Cindry ^w^


Picture credit: Mikkel Norup
Thriller Bark babes ;D Christine and I x3 The blue blond and the purple brunette xD


Picture credit: Mickey Juel Prüssing
Brook: "Panties?" *_*
Cindry: "Lul'z anti plates!" xD

And now for the result of Rosas Perona cosplay:

Picture credit: Sara-chwuaaaaan! ~
Har du lige set en fin!!! xD
Million dollar smile, and cutie-pie Kumashi x3
*Very very proud big-sister* :,3


Then! Sunday arrived, and it was time for my secret cosplay xD And as a lot of people already knew, it was Kaku from One Piece (Water 7 arc) xD xD

Picture credit: Kenn Bo Stahnke
Lol, baaad picture quality. The sleeves are way more blueish IRL and the middle part a little less orange :o
Sara took some better shots, but she's just too damn slow >:E
So a better cosplay pic of this one will probably be uploaded later on ^w^ (Or at least on my cosplay.com profile).


Felt so damn awesome to cosplay such an awesome giraffe dude with that square nose xD I felt kind of brave to do this one xD Kaku is my fav One Piece "villain" after all x3

Besides that, I don't really feel like commenting on J-pop con... The convention of thousands of people standing in line xD

Hmm what else is new... Oh yeah... that's right... I think... I might be in love x3
I'm not all that sure myself yet, but I feel so happy and warm inside everytime I think about him, which is almost constantly when I'm not texting him x3
Gonna spend the weekend with him... So I guess I'll find out x3
Just feels good to know that I still have love left in this broken heart of mine. Might be good for me to just simply move on. Might as well just enjoy life xD



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tirsdag den 9. november 2010

Messed up humor and prettyness x3

Finally blogging time again! xD

I've been busy with my cosplay making and stuff, and haven't really had any interesting stuff to blog about :/

My sleeping habit is currently a mess Dx I tend to forget to sleep at night... xD But there are so many other interesting things to do!

Anyways... I've just recieved my package from www.6dollarshirts.com and I looove the T-shirts x3

"Never thought I'd see the day (shawtaay) whit a big boat coming my waaay..." XD
(And a little maniac smile XD) lol


Double rainbow all the way across the skyyy! Yeah yeeeeaaah! So intense! Double rainbow all the way cross the skyyy! Wah-waaauw oooh my god! Look at that raaainboow! xD
(Current Facebook profile picture xD)


Arrrr! xD Couldn't help myself had to own this! xD

Oh lol... T-shirts with my terrible humor printed on them xD

Watched the brand new Saw VII in 3D last friday! Awesome movie is awesome! x3

Besides that, here's some of the pictures from my latest "photoshoot" xD






*Awaits to be bothered by parents for this xP*
I like it though! Reminds me of "The Birth of Venus" By Botticelli x3


Because I can! xD

And now for something extremely different!

Why, yes that is indeed tiny cars made out of cardboard and paint glued to my ceiling... I'm a weirdo, k thanks... xD




tirsdag den 26. oktober 2010

Autumn

Almost a joke to call it that... I'ts cold enough to be winther already >____< Well... our one week vacation went by kind of quick. Besides the GaGa concert, I've also been meeting up with people, working and the last weekend Cosplay Ready III took place. I mostly made stuff for my sisters Perona cosplay, but also some minor stuff for my own ones.

For those who know not of One Piece, this be Perona the Ghost Princess. Rosas upcoming cosplay xD
I've made the flower thingies for the hair, and I'm in the process of painting the crown and making the belt ^w^ Hopefully her boots will arrive in time O___o

So... under three weeks until J-pop con... I'm quite confident about making it in time, but I don't have any REALLY SPECTACULAR cosplay this time... (Maybe except for my secret cosplay >:3) So I'll probably be one of those people who runs around with a camera for once xD


At this point, where I only have a little less than 10 chapters left of the Fullmetal Alchemist manga, I'm getting more and more excited about cosplaying Winry Rockbell x3
I've even ordered a new and better wig than my Lucy cosplay one (which I had originally planned to use), and I'm trying to decide weather or not to wear blue contact lenses ^w^
Sara will be cosplaying as Edward Elric, so we'll be a kickass team xD
I only need to recieve and style the wig and make her sandals.


So... that's my cosplay for the J-pop con friday, and for the saturday one, I'm joining a Thriller Bark cosplay group as Cindry once again :3 That's the same group Rosa will be Perona for :D
One Piece FTW! xD


"Plates must vanish from this world >:E"

And for the sunday cosplay? Weeeeell... It's still a secret! Or at least for some people xD

torsdag den 21. oktober 2010

Herning goes Gaga

What a day yesterday was!
I used from 9 am. to 1 pm. to create an outfit, and then Christine and I took a bus ride for 4 hours to get to Herning.
Around 6 pm. we arrived at the concert place to see Lady Gaga :D
And what a show! I soooo loved the scenographies and the dancing choreographies, and Gaga surely hit us hard with all her monster hits! It was an evening full of dancing and wonderful lights and music.

But I also have to admit that there was another feeling to it...
I almost kind of wish that the person on stage was someone else. All of a sudden Gaga became so human! She showed her weaknesses and her ugliness which left me with the thought: "That could have been me on stage..."
And you might think of that as a good thing, but when it comes to Lady Gaga I would really prefer to see her as some kind og superstar idol who never makes any mistakes, who's always perfect!
Like she said herself: "I would prefer a big dose of bullshit every day, instead of the truth!"

But I guess I'll just keep imagining her as someone divine and perfect, and just remember the words she said to all us little monsters :3

It's been an experience for life, and I really enjoyed spending the day with Christine as well :3

So here's the great outfit xD


The final look with the bruises and a little bit blood xD


It's very hard to tell in the picture, but I had made fake bruises on my neck and arms.
My inspirations were a little bit of Halloween, Gagas MTV performance outfit and the lolita look.
My mom thought I looked kind of like a german Heidi girl though xD (which I actually don't mind xD)
I was one of the only people dressed up really wildly, but I loved that! My thought was: "Why not dress up?! It's a freakin Lady Gaga concert for fuck sake! xD"

fredag den 15. oktober 2010

Hair on fire and heartache

Oh goth... so much crap has been going on in my private life lately... I've already been blogging my heart out at my BlackMarket blog, so I will spare you the story :p It's just freakin' sad and messed up anyway...
Long story short, I'm single now :p

It's not easy having yourself a good time, but I'm trying my very best xD
Today I decided that it was time for my awesome hair makeover! :3

Ended up like this! :DI absolutely love it!

After my slightly fail attempt at dying it green the last time, this is just amazing! I'm planning on keeping it this way and re-dying it for some time :D

I used three different colors, actually, but the orange one is the only one you can
really see clearly. Maybe I'll dye in some more red later in the ends.

Here's a little tutorial:

*wink wink*
First a re-bleach of my hair roots, and a picture of it, simply because I look so damn sexy, when I look kinda bald xD


Color 1# Directions; Bright Daffodil.
I felt kind of stupid using this one, since it practically disappeared after washing it out, 'cause of my already quite yellow hair -_-'


Color 2# Directions; Mandarin.
This became the most dominationg color of them all, and. I would never have thought that my hair ends would look this good in this Nami styled hair color xD


Color 3# Directions; Flame.
It might look cool in the picture, but this color vanished almost completely after washing it out ;__; Next time I'll leave it in for longer :D
I also believe that this was the point where I decided, to never use that dirty old bathrobe again xD


Finished! Wet and dry xD Just have to say it again, I love it!

To take good care of my new lovely hair, I've spoiled myself with some amazing hair products. I've decided to try out a Franck Provost shampoo and conditioner, and from only one use, my hair already feels sooo soft and looks a lot healthier than it have done for some time now xD

And now for something completely different...
I just watched Fight Club for the first time with my sister here this evening, and I have to say that I LOVE IT!
I already have a love for "thinking" movies but it was also sooo refreshing watching a movie like not many others for once... I don't even know the word for it, but I would just call it... epic xD
...plus Edward Norton and Brad Pitt are an perfect eye candy bonus xD


Well... I'll keep my current good mood up... I hope ;___;


lørdag den 2. oktober 2010

Villain for a night

So, the Hero & Villain party was yesterday, and I absolutely loved it! I had such an amazing time and there were so many awesome costumes!
I really enjoyed how I for once could dress up, kind of simple and comfortable, and still be so recognizable :D
A lot of people, even random ones just passing by, recognized me as Elle Driver from Kill Bill 2 xD


This costume was surprisingly good, even though I barely spend a day putting it together xD

Such a lovely event, where people actually showed up to look awesome, and not just to get drunk. We need to have more costume-parties like that!

My sister and I AKA Gogo Yubari and Elle Driver, as Hannibal Lectors hencemen xD

Something that have come to my attention, is some people who has expressed their negative thoughts about me cosplaying guys... And that really makes me want to scream "WTF?!"
I might LOOK very girly, but I'm really not all that feminine... It's mostly my looks, but my personality can be quite boy'ish.
So, why can't I cosplay a guy?
Why do some guys find it funny and/or weird/fucked up that I cosplay men?
Is it because of my body type or because I'm just not very guy'ish or simply because they find crossplaying creepy?!
I PREFER cosplaying men! It's absolutely the most fun and nothing can stop me! >:E

I prefer female costumes when it comes to any other dress up genre though xD lol how ironic...

søndag den 26. september 2010

Arrrr!

Despite some few complication, I really enjoyed the pirate party yesterday! :3 There were so many awesome people dressed up as awesome pirates, and I was really damn satisfied with my own costume :D
I was even nominated for the best costume, but there were some misunderstandings about the competition and stuff, but I guess that's just too bad when things aren't organized well enough :p. I didn't win, but I'm really happy to know that I was one of the best dressed at the entire event!

My costume wasn't all that perfect, but it had some very original details though :3

Not many people took pictures at the event, which sucked when you're used to people with cameras everywhere at conventions, so I had to take some pictures myself xD

This was shot by Christine, in a hurry after the party ^w^ It's the only full body picture I have, but at least I have one :D
Awesomeness! XD

And a close-up, to really show the awesome open eye patch, with a corset inspired look, and the evil red demon eye behind it xD

And my pretty little hat :D
(Sitting alone in Copenhagen central station, at 4 in the morning, having had to pay 92 kr. to get home, because I didn't make the train an hour earlier, which my ticket was still available for... ;_; (but at least I looked cool xD))

My delicious shoes, and my shiny nails :D

So... moving on to the next dress-up event xD

mandag den 20. september 2010

My life dressed up xD

I'm just so happy and cheerful! My life has become one big dress up party! x3
There's the pirate party saturday, and the weekend after, I'm going to a Hero / Villain party xD


My sister and I, will be dressed up as villains from Kill Bill.

My sister as Gogo Yubari:

And me as Elle Driver (A.k.a California Mountain Snake) :
My thought is to use one of my katanas for my Zoro cosplay, since I really don't have the time to make an entire new one :p

My first intention was to dress up in a pig mask costume, from the Saw movies, but I ordered the costume yesterday, and since it has to go all the way from America to Denmark, im pretty sure it won't arrive before the party :p

It's okay though, since I've always wanted to dress up as a Kill Bill character, and I'll just use my Saw pig mask costume for Halloween instead then! >:D

I'm really excited that Rosa (my sister) wanted to come along with me! I've even already made the spiked ball in chain weapon thingy, for her costume xD

Took me less than a day to make, but only because I drove all the way to the nearest hardware store on my bike in the pouring rain to buy the chain xP

I has a spiked ball on a chain! x3 I'm quite saisfied with the result really!

And Rosa practically has all the pieces of clothes needed for the outfit ^w^ We only need some white shoes.

So that makes it:

The 25th September: Pirate party - pirate costume
The 2nd October: Hero /Villain party - Elle Driver costume
The 20th October: Lady GaGa concert - Wild GaGa inspired outfit/costume
The 22th October (and the rest of that weekend): Cosplay ready 3 - I might just dress up, you'll never know! x3
The 31th October (or maybe before or later): Halloween part - Saw style pig mask costume
The 12th November: J-pop con!!! - Winry Rockbell (FMA), Victoria Cindry (One Piece) and either Kaere Kimura (Sayonara Zetsubou sensei) or my secret cosplay ;3 (or both).

My life is one big masquerade! :D

lørdag den 18. september 2010

Whoah! English?

I'm considering doing my blog in English from now on... To make it more international and for me to practice my english before it all blows out of my head :o
So I guess this is a test then...

I've been enyoing my time at "Technical School" at the "Sign Technician" education, lol. I have no idea of how to translate it different.
Anyway, I didn't have that many good expectations about it, but it has turned out to be so very much fun!
I really get a lot of good challenges to use my creativity in different ways, and I love working with Photoshop, Illustrator etc.

I've been wondering what it would be like to actually become a full educated "Sign technician" but I'm not sure it's really something for me... yet...

A sign for my new sailor café xD

Next saturday, I'm going to a pirate party at The Rock in Copenhagen, and I'm determined to make some epic pirate costume for it! I'm not planning to win for best costume though, seeing as a lot of the people who's going to be there, probably have spent fortunes on amazing pirate costumes and accesories.
But it will definitely be a good time!

mandag den 6. september 2010

Hit the runway!

Woah! Så fik jeg Dark Market fashion show overstået. ^_^'
Og når jeg siger overstået mener jeg, overlevet mine nervøsitets anfald og rent faktisk vist det geniale outfit frem som Lauralai havde kreeret :D

Det var awesome, på trods af komplikationerne der opstod backstage, såsom at vi blev frarøvet et lokale og at Laura lige blev overfaldet af en bruser da hun syede det sidste på den geniale lyserøde spændetrøje jeg havde på xD

Jeg går lidt og venter på at se en video af showet, da jeg var så nervøs at jeg ikke engang kan huske hvordan jeg poserede xP
Men jeg er fast besluttet på at overvinde de skide nerver og rysteanfald. Jeg tror jeg vil snakke med lægen om det, da det er så slemt at jeg endda kan få et rysteanfald bare jeg skal købe P-piller på apoteket ó___ò Også selvom jeg har gjort det en masse gange før!
Tanken om noget der måske i fremtiden vil gøre mig nervøs, kan også få mig til at ryste vildt på hænderne. Det er så mega latterligt for jeg ved godt at det ikke er farligt!

Lauralai til venstre, som binder min spændetrøje :o Alle outfits som kan ses her er designet og syet af hende! (I'm impressed xD) Billedet er lånt af Black Market bruger Marikka :)

Vi missede desværre et photo shoot, mega trist, men det var stadig fedt! Venter på at finde en video og flere billeder fra showet :)

Og så fik jeg endelig taget mig sammen og farvet mit hår xD
Det er MEGET mere grønt i virkeligheden, og jeg har besluttet at jeg elsker det :D Har også idéer til næste gang det skal have en genial farve xD

Nuværende Facebook profil billede:Gæt hvorfor ^w^

Og som afsked for nu, kan i få lov at glo på min bagdel xD :p

Citeret af Christine: "Jeg har set din røv i lys fra alle sider!"
xD